My sincerest apologies for the way I've been lately.
For not getting the prizes sent out. For everything.
I will get it done as soon as i possibly can, but i just haven't got money at the moment to send them. They are made, and ready to send. I'm sorry again...
So, the past months have been horrible. I've been slowly gaining and maintaining. I hate it. I'm miserable. I'm ruining everything with D because of it and i hate myself for it. I just can't get my motivation back. I can't get the strength to stop the b/p and start fasting.
I was so happy fasting. I was so happy at 115 and below. Happy enough to be comfortable.. now... i just plain and simple hate myself.
I need help. This b/ping isn't stopping and even though D knows all, he can't do anything to help me when he's out working all day. He's paying for us to join a gym but that's as far as he can go helping...
Tips?
I'm going to start fasting from now. One b/p today and it will be my last!!!
Start weight. 125.8lbs
GW for Monday 121 lbs
Much love,
El
xo
June 24, 2011
June 04, 2011
I would like to apologise
I've been all over the place recently. I don't know who follows me on Tumblr but I've decided to get help. It's gotten too bad now. b/p up to 5x a day, nose bleeds, chest pains, heartburn. I even started throwing up without having to make myself.
I will still post, but it will be more about my 'recovery' if you can call it that.
I don't want to rid Ana. I love Ana. It's Mia i can't stand and who is really putting my health at risk.
Well, I told my bf everything and he's been amazing. If you want to read about the past couple days or keep up to date with me 100% i suggest following me on tumblr, or keeping an eye on the twitter updates in the sidebar as tumblr is hooked to that!
http://miss-skinny-el.tumblr.com/
<3
Post your weights up from Wednesday, and I'll calculate the winners and be in touch.
There will not be a June challenge, but there might be a July challenge to kick off the summer fun!
Much love to you all, for supporting me throughout the months and I hope you can continue to show your support through this.
El xox
I will still post, but it will be more about my 'recovery' if you can call it that.
I don't want to rid Ana. I love Ana. It's Mia i can't stand and who is really putting my health at risk.
Well, I told my bf everything and he's been amazing. If you want to read about the past couple days or keep up to date with me 100% i suggest following me on tumblr, or keeping an eye on the twitter updates in the sidebar as tumblr is hooked to that!
http://miss-skinny-el.tumblr.com/
<3
Post your weights up from Wednesday, and I'll calculate the winners and be in touch.
There will not be a June challenge, but there might be a July challenge to kick off the summer fun!
Much love to you all, for supporting me throughout the months and I hope you can continue to show your support through this.
El xox
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