Livid!!

I can't believe i done it again! 64cals per 100g serving - oh no, i had to be a complete 'tard and read it as 64 cals per bottle. There's a total of 475g in one bottle. around 300cals. FOOL. So livid! Luckily i realised 2/3 the way into drinking it so i didn't consume the whole lot. Minor set back, i'm sure if anything it'll help. Don't fool for the same thing i did haha! The culprit ;

Damn you Yazoo. Damn you *Shakes fist*

Sing sing ☀

It's no wonder i'm not eating,

I'm not sleeping♪

Hello beautiful followers ♥
How are you all today? Good i hope!
I'm doing okay i guess, today was a big fail with the whole "fast" thing. I decided to go on the ABC diet and eat 200 cals a day. I managed to consume 250 which isn't too much over, but then realised that i have such a short amount of time to lose, i can't be dealing with that. The good thing is "heinz(i think) Big veg soup" is only 86cal per half can, so 132cal per tin! How good is that?! I think with this fast i need to kickstart my metab every few days, so i'll fast for 3-4 days then have one day where i break the tin of soup up to 4 servings, 1/4 can every 4 hours or something. That should do it.. I hope.

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I've had a pretty good day to be fair. I thought it would be a crappy day after we went to 3 argos' and each one was 'sold out' of the sewing machine we wanted. So i addmitted defeat with a strop on (of corse) and we went home. My sister and her fiancé came over to see us, and we decided to pop to Makros for some bits. Mum had mentioned seeing sewing machines there but only the handy ones (crappy) for cheap. So we walked about and picked up some things, then, lo and behold, a sewing machine! Better than the one from Arogs - and cheaper! So we swiped it up and paid. Got home for around 4pm, and it's now 10:30pm and i've only JUST stopped playing and making my birthday dress!! I feel exhausted mentaly hehe (added on) I think i'm going to upload a picture of the belt as i really felt proud of this haha! Here it is!! 

 The first one ^ looks like underwear - but i promise it's a belt! The picture's aren't very clear but from what you can see what do you think? all made from one peice of material, bowed and sewed it myself, cut the material etc!

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I found some DVDs today too (well mum did, But i'll take credit as she doesn't read this (; ) There are 2, and they each have workouts specified to tone cirtain areas! So, if i do them everyday - Hello to a flatter tum, better bum, and thinner thighs!  Along with a great workout a friend of mine has suggested for love handles and Thighs! Just got to wait for mum to go to bed or on the computer and i'll get them done! 

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I wont bore you guys anymore with my rambling! I'll upload pictures as i go with the dress - and a finished product hopefuly with a skinny me wearing it :D

I hope you all had a good day / are having a good day

Stay strong!!

El xox

P.s i stopped taking OEP for the time being. I'm going to save them till i'm in low 120s due to the sickness i get and disturbed sleep. When the lbs get harder to shift i will start taking them ^_^ x

Please tell me you'll fight this fight ☂

If this, is giving up, 

Then i'm giving up. ♪

Hey everyone!

I can not believe this anymore. I had a "Veggy burger" today due to mum making me have something for dinner. I went for a jog STRAIGHT after and purged it in the park. I got as much as i could  up, then took my OEP. I managed to do about 1.6miles jogging which is more than i can normaly handle. I am getting better. I'm so angry at myself as i haven't eaten in 3 days (except the purge) and my weight keeps fluxuating between 137 - 139. I just can't believe it. I hope that i lose a chunk suddenly or i'll be soooo upset. Question; Can you gain from dreaming you're binging like mad?! hahaha

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OEP gave me some hassle yesterday. I only took one yesterday and had interupted sleep for the first time in a long time... Taken 2 today so i'm dreading the effects tonight. Other than that they're doing wonders (appart from me not losing!!) 

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Tried starting my dress for my birthday today as i have less than a month!!! Dad finaly got the sewing machine down and guess what... IT'S FAULTY. Stupid damn thing, now i have to try and find somewhere open on a sunday to buy a mini one for the dress.

I'm not sure if you guys noticed that my day has gone from bad to worse to even worse! I'm sorry that it's just a big ol' rant so far! 

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Well, hopefully i'll lose some by tomorrow morning, if not i think i'll break. Thing is i look like i have around the waist//tummy, just not on the scale. :/ hmph.

I don't want to carry this blog on, ranting and raving boring you all. So i'll weigh myself and post what it is (and cry) 

Current weight:     138.8 lbs [sob]

Monday goal weight:  135 (Again!!)

Crazy work out session needed tomorrow i think. Wish me luck!!!!

El xox

P.s Thank you all for your comments! Honestly i can't stress enough how much you all help me and keep me going <3 Much love for you!!!!

I could spill my guts out ☁

 You self destructive little girl, pick yourself up, don't blame the world

So you screwed up? But you're gunna me okay. ♪

This is pretty much how i feel after my weight today. I can't believe i let myself slip after getting so far! Atleast one thing has come out of this mess; I'm more determind now, than i ever was! Just been for a jog! Going to do one every day now. (bar tuesday - college)

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I love how everytime i come online i have more followers, you girls really are the best ♥

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I'm not sure if you wonder what the ^ breakers i use are for, I thought it was a nice little touch since my weight determinds my day. Sunny = happy, cloudy = content and rain = all the negative emotions ^_^ I think i'll start putting one of them into my blog titles everyday. Atleast then you're warned if my blog will be a whole lot of positive or a whole lot of ranting!! Saying that.. I'll start it now... *adds into blog title*  All done!

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So, i bet you're all reading wanting to know about the Oxyeliete Pro? I shall keep you in suspense no longer! I'm about to take my second of the day as i'm begining to get hungry. The morning one woke me up and completely took away the growls in my stomach, and i had so much energy i didn't want to sit still! Ran for longer than i have before too! Although doing the exercise has made me feel nauseous, and i can just taste that it's them. Only downside though! 8/10 so far! Bravo OEP!

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Not alot left to say i guess! I added the pictures if you didn't notice ---> On that side! Plus some of my favourite songs! I hope you enjoy them! I will add more as i think of them etc. I will keep thinking of new things to add! I'm going to make my own weight counter to put as a header under my blog picture! That should be done within the next hour or so!
Thank you all for your wonderful support and suggestions! You're all a great help to me and keep me going ♥
Stay strong!
El xox
P.s deffinately take a look at Marianas Trench - Feeling small. It's amazing!!

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Questions for the day!

1) What's your favourite exercise and/or most effective exercise?

2) What is your biggest motivator? 

♥ 

Place your bets, it's a matter of context.

  I never had a single cigarette that I didn't enjoy,  

And all the dreams leave such a bitter taste on my tongue.

 Despite the smell of an old aged man, I'm young at heart,  

If I was to have just one more day, I'd make sure that I spent it without you.♪

Hello all, ♥

I can't shake this feeling that i want to add more to my profile for you lovely people. But i just don't know what! I think i may add a before picture [which is gross] and then maybe start doing one every 5-10lbs lost! Any other suggestions?

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I had an extremely bad case of the bad tummy today, not where i couldn't stop, but where i couldn't start. So my mother dearest said to take 2 of these "Natural" lax, which take about 8 hours to kick in. Well, they're kicking in now!! Stupid sons of bitches! I would say "I don't care how people can go through this every night" if i wasn't so obsessed with losing. I'd do it. Which sucks, 'cause it's like hell on earth! Although it just shows how much having a bad tummy effects the weigh-in as i lost 4lbs in a few hours just by having the lax and losing he bloatedness. I'm back to 137 so only 2lbs heavier than i was 5 days ago (?)

And, for some reason they made me a little tired, so i "napped." BIGGEST mistake, i ended up sleeping 5-9, and now at 10:30pm i'm wide awake!! Damn me.

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I got my OxyEliete Pro through today! I'm over the moon ;D I came down the road and saw the mat on the porch bulging and was close to letting out a squeel!  I will be starting them tomorrow morning and i will deffinately let you all know how they work. If you haven't heard of them they have been reccomended by many buddies of mine from the states, and are ment to be great! Even a buddy from the UK has used them and said they're great! I should be up early due to my sleep today, so i'm going to try and take one then go for a run on the buzz. I'm looking forward to it!

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So summerising my day it's been pretty good, i tried Mint tea - which wasn't half bad, just the overpowering smell that makes it hard to bare. Will stick to Green tea i think! College was fine, geting along nicely with that. OEP came which is good! Managed to sort out my "+lbs" i apparently put on, and i think that's about it really. How exciting!! (sarcasm)

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Thank-you for the replys! Seems you all love the restricting/ABC diet, and i wish you all the best of luck with it! As for the songs, Superchick - Courage is a great song, if you love that you'll love ' Marianas Trench - Skin & Bones '  check it out (:

Stay strong everyone! 

El xox

Something told me to run

Out of the box, out of the kitchen, 

out of the world she's grown so fearful of

Wooahh,  15 followers! Hello and welcome!
I've not much to say today. I scewed up big time so i tried to make myself feel better by going for a run. Pushed myself hard enough that i felt so sick. I had to bring something up so i tried, but failed. I'm +lbs now which i didn't want, but all that will change. I'm more determined than ever to get down. My next goal weight for Monday is 129lbs, which is roughly about 9lbs more to go. Doable? If i try! Back to nothing but liquids and I'll throw in a lot of extra workout when i have spare time. I also played around with my blog, i hope you like the changes. There's a little thinspo on the side <- for you all to see, it's only pictures from photobucket or something but it's great for the days i don't have a thinspo. I also put up the Girl of the week, to save me putting her in the posts!
I'm not looking forward to my early start tomorrow but i guess the earlier I'm up the more exercise I'll get throughout the day!
I've been wanting to Vblog or do something like that for a while now, and I've finally decided on making thinspo videos for everyone to see. I've made my first one today and hopefully you'll like it!!

Here it is (:

I hope you are all doing well, and i thought I'd leave you with a couple of questions so you can answer them in comment (:

1) What is your favourite thinspo song

2) What is your chosen method? (fast/ABC/other)

Stay strong ! We can do this, We can be perfect

El xox

I wanted to say special thanks to a few people too for my last entry comments. I appreciate your input and you made me feel so much better about seeing my ex! 

Thank you- 

*HareyHeartsAna  -  I will keep it up! I want to see bones! >.< I wish it'd come quicker! <3

Amy - These people haven't seen me since i lost it, but i guess they felt rude. I hope he kicked himself...right where it hurt!!!! Thank you so much for your support <3

Her - Thank you (: you made me happy to think he noticed! <3

bonesarepure - I agree, i never thought of it like that! Thank you! <3

Raynay - I think you might be right! Let's hope that the ex noticed! <3

And everyone else who comments from now !

I see it in my mind, how it looked on the outside

 Please tell me you'll fight this fight
I can't see without your light
I need you to breathe into my life
Don't tell me this is goodbye
I won't grieve - it's not yet time
Each breath breathed is keeping hope alive

So guys, i have something a little funny to tell you.
I saw my ex at the club last night, and i decided to make no effort what so ever speaking to him as he hasn't for me.
So I walked past him near the toilets, and thought why should i bother saying hi. so i just walked straight passed head held high, confident and i held the door for someone inside and glanced back to him, he looked back at his mate, said something then looked back to me. Looked a little shocked in the face!  I was like YEAH,  you could have had this. hahaha!
It's great that I've lost a big chunk of weight. And funny thing is, he has put it on! It's like I've transferred it to him!! He has got so chunky!!! Makes me feel so good. like I'm so much stronger than him!
Apart from that the night was okay, was on vodka and diet coke but then i changed to cherry sour and lemonade as the vodka tasted gross. But then i felt too guilty and purged it all, which was good in the end. Only thing i will say is how annoyed i am how no one has commented on how I've lost weight. I know i have, the scales show it, the tape measure says it, the clothes say it. But the people that matter don't. I guess this just gives me more motivation to lose more and more until it's undeniably noticeable! LET'S DO THIS!

I did have a slip up last night, must have been a tad drunk and was slightly upset, i came in and binged on grilled cheese sandwiches. but they were so thin i think they were less cals than the one i had Sunday. Probably around 700cals for both. I stopped myself from having the french fries too. I was so scared to weigh myself this morning as i had gone up 1lb yesterday and thought that this was ruined,  but i finally plucked up the courage and I'm 135.2 (: So that's 0.2lbs down. Which I'm fine with since i haven't gained, and i have eaten the past 2 days! I do have college tonight so it should be a lot better. My Granddads birthday today and my family are over there for a Chinese take-out and i was freaking out when i received the text. Then suddenly it clicked that i had college! I was so happy !!

Anyway, I've bored you enough! Hope you're all doing well, and thank you all so much for the support. You're all amazing!!!
El xox