If this, is giving up,
Then i'm giving up. ♪
Hey everyone!
I can not believe this anymore. I had a "Veggy burger" today due to mum making me have something for dinner. I went for a jog STRAIGHT after and purged it in the park. I got as much as i could up, then took my OEP. I managed to do about 1.6miles jogging which is more than i can normaly handle. I am getting better. I'm so angry at myself as i haven't eaten in 3 days (except the purge) and my weight keeps fluxuating between 137 - 139. I just can't believe it. I hope that i lose a chunk suddenly or i'll be soooo upset. Question; Can you gain from dreaming you're binging like mad?! hahaha
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OEP gave me some hassle yesterday. I only took one yesterday and had interupted sleep for the first time in a long time... Taken 2 today so i'm dreading the effects tonight. Other than that they're doing wonders (appart from me not losing!!)
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Tried starting my dress for my birthday today as i have less than a month!!! Dad finaly got the sewing machine down and guess what... IT'S FAULTY. Stupid damn thing, now i have to try and find somewhere open on a sunday to buy a mini one for the dress.
I'm not sure if you guys noticed that my day has gone from bad to worse to even worse! I'm sorry that it's just a big ol' rant so far!
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Well, hopefully i'll lose some by tomorrow morning, if not i think i'll break. Thing is i look like i have around the waist//tummy, just not on the scale. :/ hmph.
I don't want to carry this blog on, ranting and raving boring you all. So i'll weigh myself and post what it is (and cry)
Current weight: 138.8 lbs [sob]
Monday goal weight: 135 (Again!!)
Crazy work out session needed tomorrow i think. Wish me luck!!!!
El xox
P.s Thank you all for your comments! Honestly i can't stress enough how much you all help me and keep me going <3 Much love for you!!!!
hmmmm that is an enigma. your doing so good though! don't get discouraged. Are you drinking enough? perhaps you are retaining water? I always have that problem b/c i hate water with a bloody passion. XP
ReplyDeletesorry your day has been less than great - hope things pick up and i know you'll get to 135 :P xx
ReplyDeleteWOAH! You can sew?! That's so awesome, I wanna learn it to!
ReplyDeleteAnd please watch out with the purging, because in my experience it makes you gain more weight than just keeping things in. It messes up your whole system and you end up wanting to binge constantly. Don't mean to sound preachy, I just don't want you to get hurt
You'll lose the weight <3
I'm so glad that you're staying strong still! I've been following you for ages and now you've got even more followers and you've got more support. You can reach the goal no doubt girl we're all here cheering you on :) xx
ReplyDeleteim sorry that the scale isnt listeing to u
ReplyDeletetry drinkng more it might help
and im sorry about ut day going from bad to wrose