Ignorance is your new best friend.

My sincerest apologies for the way I've been lately.
For not getting the prizes sent out. For everything.
I will get it done as soon as i possibly can, but i just haven't got money at the moment to send them. They are made, and ready to send. I'm sorry again...

So, the past months have been horrible. I've been slowly gaining and maintaining. I hate it. I'm miserable. I'm ruining everything with D because of it and i hate myself for it. I just can't get my motivation back. I can't get the strength to stop the b/p and start fasting.
I was so happy fasting. I was so happy at 115 and below. Happy enough to be comfortable.. now... i just plain and simple hate myself.
I need help. This b/ping isn't stopping and even though D knows all, he can't do anything to help me when he's out working all day. He's paying for us to join a gym but that's as far as he can go helping...

Tips?

I'm going to start fasting from now. One b/p today and it will be my last!!!

Start weight. 125.8lbs
GW for Monday 121 lbs

Much love,
El
xo

I would like to apologise

I've been all over the place recently. I don't know who follows me on Tumblr but I've decided to get help. It's gotten too bad now. b/p up to 5x a day, nose bleeds, chest pains, heartburn. I even started throwing up without having to make myself.
I will still post, but it will be more about my 'recovery' if you can call it that.
I don't want to rid Ana. I love Ana. It's Mia i can't stand and who is really putting my health at risk.
Well, I told my bf everything and he's been amazing. If you want to read about the past couple days or keep up to date with me 100% i suggest following me on tumblr, or keeping an eye on the twitter updates in the sidebar as tumblr is hooked to that!
http://miss-skinny-el.tumblr.com/
<3

Post your weights up from Wednesday, and I'll calculate the winners and be in touch.
There will not be a June challenge, but there might be a July challenge to kick off the summer fun!

Much love to you all, for supporting me throughout the months and I hope you can continue to show your support through this.
El xox

Monday weigh-in

hey guys,
Sorry I haven't updated it yet. Will do that now.
Post your weights ;3

Sorry to the previous winners, still having trouble with my money!
I will update properly as soon as, it's hard at the moment with all going on!
Hope you're all doing well!
Much love,
El
xox

It's that time of week again!

And i will be the first to say that i gained -.- luckily not hugely. It's thanks to my (new) boyfriend. He took me to nandos and we got pizza saturday too. I cooked for him last night too. But, luckily it's only like 2.8lbs. I can deal with that, and lose it again quickly <3
So yeah, i met this guy, and we're now together. Woop <33 everything's going well!! Andddd, I'm now 10 days smoke free. Thanks to him! I can do exercise so much easier. I'm so proud of myself!

Well, current weight 121.8lbs
Post yours hereee (:


BRACELET UPDATE; I am going to be making them tonight, and hopefuly sending them by thursday. My money comes through then (: Hang tight! You'll get them! <3

Much love, and happiness for once!
El xox

Monday weigh-in!

Post in your weights today lovelies (:

Apologies to COR for missing you out! ):

And for the winners of April, Your bracelets will be sent as soon as my money comes though. Hang tight!

WINNERS OF APRIL CHALLENGE

And the winner issss....

For The Prophet

SW: 154 lbs
GW: 145 lbs
Height: 5'10"
11th April: 150.6lbs
18th April 148.4lbs
25th April: 145.6lbs

Final: 145.2
Current loss: 8.8lb

Well done to you! Check the bottom of the post to find out how to get your 2 bracelets (:

The runners up are;

Monika
CW: 151.4
GW: 135
Height: 5'10.5
11th April: 145.7lbs
18th April: 144.1lbs
25th April: 146.2lbs

Final: 144.5
Current loss: 6.9lb

and

Little Jo
SW: 113.2
GW: 105lbs
Height: 5'7
11th April: 111.4lbs
18th April: 109.2lbs
25th April: 104.4lbs

Final: 106.4lbs
Current loss: 6.8lbs

Enjoy the bracelet each (:

Congratulations to the winner and runners up ;D  

and well done to EVERYONE who took part! You all done fantastic! Don't forget to enter the May Challenge to win a bracelet and necklace!

To CLAIM the prize, please E-mail me your choice of colour, and any charms you wanton them & your FULL address! 

I have dragonflies, wings, letters, and if you want to enquire on any other charms i have then please just e-mail me to sort it out (:

skinny_el@hotmail.co.uk

May Challenge! Your chance to WIN!

May Challenge

The rules;

1) You MUST post your weight on the weekly "weigh-in" post i will do. This will be MONDAYS

2) You MUST state your current stats in THIS blog post. I will do a gadget on the left with names and stats.

3) You MUST accurately take your weight every Monday. It can be St.lbs or Lbs. But please include the "point" IE 130.3lbs

4) You CANNOT lie. If you fell off one week and gained, don't be embarrassed. Just take it as a learning curve and carry on. Show us you can lose it, and more the following week!

5) Anything goes in respects to how you lose it. Except surgery, that's cheating ofc!

6) Buddying up with someone who is also taking part is allowed. In fact, it's encouraged! Motivate each other!

I might add more as i go, but those are the only ones i can think of right now. Any problems, my e-mail is 

skinny_el@hotmail.co.uk

And also MSN if you'd like to talk on there (:

Some of you are re-entering, some of you may be entering for the first time. But my "April Challenge" saw so many who entered and didn't post their weights weekly. Please, if you enter, make sure you can post weekly to stay in the running for winner!
Get your followers to join, or buddies, or friends! Just post a link to them and get them to join! <3

Good luck to everyone who joins in, i know we can do this! Let's make May THE month of hitting our goals!! 

Much love and luck,

El xox

The winner of my May challenge will receive 1 customised bracelets of their choice. Dragonfly charm available on it, and ALSO a customised necklace of their choice! 
It will be privately arranged by myself and the winner, for where to send it etc. Available in all ED colours.. check here for colours and meanings, or Hereeee for samples of my bracelets (:

2 runners up will also receive one bracelet OR necklace. Either Ana, Mia or EDnos or general purdyness!

April challenge final weights are still waiting to be collected. If you haven't already given me final weights please go HERE and post it. I will annoucnce the winners during the week, if you don't give me the weight you won't be able to win!

Also have a tumblr now so follow me there too <3 Pretty Pro Slim




SW:
Height:
Method:
By the end of May i would like to hit a goal weight of ?? pounds.

Final weigh-in and MAY CHALLENGE!

Okay, so i haven't got the final stuff for May Challenge but i can tell you it will be happening, and the prize will be a bracelet and necklace for the winner, and a choice of either a bracelet or necklace for 2 runner-ups (:
I have taken out the girls who i've not heard from the whole month. So i'm sorry but feel free to enter the May Challenge! Jennie, Ellie, Teresa, MaryJane, Mandagin, Maddi, Belle <3


In this post, please eneter yourself for the May Challenge. And also post your final weights for the 30th April so i can find out the winner/runner ups and get things sorted for the prizes! Please keep an eye on my posts as i will be giving instructions on how to sort it out and recieve the prizes!

Well done to everyone who took part in the challenge. You all done fantastic!! Don't worry if you gained, or lost, these challenges are just so you can get a bit more excited about losing weight! Because it can get a bit boring and sometimes you just feel so crap! So keep your head high, your feet on the ground, and focus on the May challenge. Only a couple months left until summer beauties <3 We an do this!!!!

So, please, Post FINAL weights for April... and then your weights for May! <3
Instead of "GW" I've added a question. And i've also added... "Method" to make things clearer for those partaking! This means how you're losing. Eg. "Fast" or "ABC" or "Restricting"


SW:
Height:
Method:
By the end of may, I would like to hit a goal weight of .... ?


Here's for me!



SW: 122.4

Height:  5'5
Method: Fasting
By the end of may, I would like to hit a goal weight of ... 103lbs

I will be updating on sunday with a full May Challenge post (: With all it's glory!  
Much love,
El oxx

Monday weigh in post

Yes it's a tad early. Just making sure it's here for tomorrow incase i don't get on!!

Post your weights lovely. I will do another one on the 30th for the final weigh in, and then post the winners on the 1st/2nd (:

I also made a Tumblr for my weightloss.

here! Follow <3


Love you all!
El
xox

Monday Weigh in. 18th April

Post your weights everyone!
<3

FML

Hey guys

I'm in Portsmouth for the weekend and I've been eating like a pig since yesterday. I'm going to fail for this week, miserably, I think if anything it'll be a gain. But i'm going to start jogging as of Monday night, and fasting, so hopefully i'll catch up by the following monday. I won't hit my goals, but i'll sure as hell get as close to them as posible!

I'd like to apologise for any mistakes for the weigh in and missing out Rowan ): I was actually drunk from Friday until Tuesday so i did actualy update it when i was drunk -.- i will go through it all and make sure it's right before adding mondays weights to it. <3

Hope you're all doing well! 

I will tell you now, next time I'm going to a tattoo convention please remind me NOT to act on impulse. I now have an ankle tattoo for H4H and am part of the Cupcake club bahahahahhaha

Here'sthe Kitty-cupcake!

We all got one, for memory of the trip to Portsmouth.

I will be absoloutly f**ked tonight. We have 9 bottles of wine to drink... 

And we're going to run down to the Tattoo convention tonight when it's dark and steal a poster each from outside. I will deffinately let you know how that one goes.

For now, I will bid you farewell as i'm off to start drinking. And get more fat! Monday is a new start, square one, build on myself. I've done it before, i WILL do it again. And this time, i will tone and get to 100lbs or lower (:

I'll leave you with the love of our Portsmouth Mascott...

Suppressor!!

Much love,
El xox

I'm struggling to see, the better side of me

Do you ever feel exhausted from the 'ED' you have?

Ever wish it could go, and you could be normal?

Yeah. I do wish that. Although i then try and remember how strong i am compared to others.

It's an argument I've been having with myself for a long time.

I went for lunch today, binged on a lot. Veggie burger, curley fries, nachos, ice-cream. 

And I'm pretty sure you can guess what i done as soon as i got in.

Mhmm. Well, on the plus side, after binging the past 3 days i'm now over it. I think. And I'm 1.2lbs down from this morn. 

I'm currently arguing with D. He cancelled on me today, which has sent me over the edge with him. I'm sick of it, and if he doesn't sort it out that's it. 

Not much to say really. Monday weigh in didn't get everyones weight so if you haven't yet given me the weight from Monday please go to the last post and let me know, or you won't be in the running to win the bracelets. Good luck to all, hope you're doing well this week!

Love, 

El xox

Well I sussed you good. Oh You knew I would. (Monday Weigh-in)

Hello all. Do you know what day it is? That's right. Weigh-in day. 

First off, let me kick this post off with a huge Hello <3 to all my new followers. I have now reached 101 people. Is that true? 101 people who actually read this crap? ^_^ Thank you everyone. I would be nowhere without you all! 

Now, let's get into the April Challenge. I'll kick things off with my weight, then you post yours in comment on this blog post. Making sure to include the point lbs. If you haven't got the point, or don't remember what it was, don't worry too much. Just give me the lbs you can (:

Me: 122.3

Yeah, that's right. 1lb. Fail. 

I was 117 on Friday. yeah, I got down to 117. But my friend came down for the weekend and refused to let me not eat. On top of that, I've spent the last 3 days eating and drinking at parties and BBQ's and picnics etc. My friends are bad influences. Clubbing tonight though, so i should lose a couple. My goal for the next Monday is 112. I can do that! I hope...

Well, there you go everyone. Don't be embarrassed if you've gained, maintained or lost little. Just get back up, dust yourself up and keep on going!

So, i made a split decision on Friday. Not sure if i mentioned I'm now stretching my ears, and being drunk the majority of the weekend i now have a 4mm in one and a 3mm in the other where i made my friend shove them through hahaha. 

This split decision was different though. I got my lip pierced. I've been wanting it done for a while now, but never got the balls. Well, i woke up and just decided to do it.

<3 

Hope you're all doing well. Can't wait to hear how you've done. Don't forget, post on this blog post and I'll update the < side bar when I've got the first few. 

Much love to you all,

El xox

I jumped off the train, running off the tracks.

Hey Lovelies <3

So, today I'm fighting Mia away with a bloody baseball bat. Since the rents are away, I have the hosue to myself which means effectivly, all the binging and purging i can possibly want to do. I refuse. I don't want to do it. I'm down more today, and i'm starting to feel so good with myself that I'm losing again. (I won't give numbers until the monday weigh in (; ) I just want to get to 112 and then lower again. I just don't want to gain again. I'm proud i haven't done the b/p yet and they've been gone 3 days. Tonight I'm alone. I just hope I'm strong enough to keep her at bay.

The other night was good. When J came over. He came about 10pm, and we stayed up until about 3am just talking. Then we laid, hugging. It was so cute, and he is too. It's nice. 

I went to see D yesterday, as i hate being on my own in the house so he said i could stay for the night. We didn't hug up, or anything, the whole night. We normaly do, but i think i was really distant from him. I did spent the majority of the night texting J haha. He was asking about J. How it was going, and all that. Seems he may be a little jealous? He kept looking at me thinking i didn't see. Sighing when i was texting. He knew it was J as he saw the name pop up on my phone when i was out of the room. Meh!

Glorious weather the last 2 days. It was officially the hottest day of the year yesterday, and today was (in my opinion) hotter. But not 'technically' haha. It was nice to go out in shorts and a tank top without feeling shit. And i have some exciting news. I saw a cute black dress that was in the sale, i thought it was nice then saw the size. Size 6. I stared at it for a couple minutes before plucking up the courage to try it on. It was perfect fit. Really. Size 6!! (I think that's US 4) Made my day haha! Didn't buy it though, it was a bit too long and i want to wait until i can go into every shop and get into each shops 6!

April challenge has started with a bang! 20 people have joined <3 WOO! I'm so happy it's a hit. And since you lovely people have joined and been so enthusiastic for it, i've decided i will be doing one every month, and i'm quite creative so i'll think of different prizes! Another big good luck to you all! And the link for those who want to join that haven't yet (:

April Challenge!

Don't forget to repost the link, to get buddies and followers to join! The more competition the better!

I want to say a huge thank you to all my readers, and a big big HELLO to all my new followers. I'm now 5 away from 100 followers! That's amazing and it's all thanks to you all! I love you guys <3

I hope you're all doing well with the April Challenge. Don't forget if you'd like to chat with me personally or need any advice, my MSN is skinny_el@hotmail.co.uk

Much love to you all,

El 

xox


Replies

PollyAnna -  Thank you hun! Zombies creep me out too, but when you're one yourself it's pretty awesome haha! I love it though (:  I have been thinking about D. If i'm still 'in love' with him, or just love him because he's D. I think it might be the later! Ugh! Thank you for the support <3

Skittles - That is me! Not my real hair though, a wig! hahaha. But thank you <3 Yes yes, we can all do this!

Dani - I got it (: thank you hun, hope you're all good <3

Rowan - They are pretty cool, even if they are creepy haha! Thank you hun (: I bet your legs are great! I'm sure you'll think differently by the end of the April Challenge!