Day 2 part 2

It's only 5.30 and i'm feeling the struggle now. I'm shaking and my stomach is really hurting. But i can't bring myself to eat, eating is failing, and that's something i'm not prepared to do. I need to keep reminding myself of why i'm doing this, and those things are too important to me. I don't want to be fat the rest of my life, i don't want to feel like i can't go out without everyone staring and judging me, making me feel like i'm the biggest girl in the world. I just can't have it. I will be skinny again. I'd rather be dead than not reach my goal. I'm not happy how i am and this is the only way i can be happy again. Here's some things to look at if you're feeling the strain, and for me to look back at.

 El x

The only freedom left is the freedom to starve.

Do you really want to be that weight for the rest of your life!?!?

Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else.

Eat less, weigh less.

Starving is not pain, it's the cure.

Happy or sad, rich or poor, it's better being thin.

Starve my pain away, make me beautiful, make everything ok, turn my problems into bone, crush them up, gather the remains, blow away the dust.

Every time you say "No Thank you", You say " Yes Please" to Thin

Eat to live, but don't live to eat

HUNGER HURTS BUT STARVING WORKS.

An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist but ordinary's just not good enough today

Thin has a taste all its own

Starving is an example of excellent will power

An imperfect body reflects and imperfect person

Don't give up what you want most for what you want at the moment.

Every day that I succeed, I get one day closer to my goal

When you start to feel dizzy and weak, you're almost there