This is who i am, and it's all that i can be.

I can do this! I'm so psyched for this now. I have 3 shoots booked for the next month and i refuse to give up. I wil lose this weight and i'll look super super sexy in these shoots <3 I have a new goal, by November the 28th i want to be able to fit into my camo shorts for the army shoot. I WILL DO THIS!!!
So, with this in mind i am back to 126, which is good considering how hard it's been lately. And i'm up in 10 hours for a long hard gym session! I'm looking to do 1 hour and 30 mins on the cross trainer in intervals, hopefully burning 900 calories. Wish me luck!!
Had a stressful couple of days, and if i don't post for a while it's due to my internet connection being a complete tard and losing connection all the time :| I will try and keep you posted on my phone. I managed to comment a few blogs yesterday, and if you were one of the unlucky ones who didn't recieve a comment then i'm sorry ): It's my connection!
Thank you all so much for your comments, and your suggestions on Katy Perry outfits! I was going to use my candy girl dress from my 20th but then my friend decided she is coming and came up with a brilliant idea...
We're going to paint on cat faces, dress slightly revealing, and call outselves the pussycat dolls (: Great isn't it? I love my besty!
I've been so happy lately and honestly, i feel so lucky for what i have at this moment in time, compared to the state i was in last year. I may not have an amazing boyfriend (or a boyfriend at all) but i have the greatest friends, the greatest supporters, the best family, i'm doing things for myself and becoming independant. I'm finaly able to work! (just need to find a job ^^; ), My modelling is back up and running, i'm doing my GCSEs and doing well! (Shocker) and i'm doing my driving! It's just amazing to think that i was ready to attempt to take my life again (tried and failed 2x before) just over a year ago! I wouldn't go back there if someone offered me a million pound. This is me, my life, my priorities, my happiness, my everything, and i would not let anything ever come between me and this life! All i have left to do is lose this weight ^_^
I wanted to make this post symbolic. so i'm going to make a list now of things i want to acheive by February or during 2011 (:

1. Get to 7 or 7.7 stone
2. Get a job
3. Pass my driving test (this may take a little longer)
4. Acheive my goals in English & Maths
5. Get onto my Legal secretary course
6. Go on Holiday
7. Get my portfolio for modelling complete and sent to agencies!
8. Make more things to do!

I hope you're all having a fantastic week so far, and are staying strong! Don't forget you're beautiful! Each and every one of you! And you CAN reach your goals!
Take care lovelies, take care
El xoxox