November 11, 2010

What's going on?

Evening lovelies! (:
(well morning technically)

I don't know what's going on but i managed to drop 3lbs since last night! And it's definite as even with water weight tonight I'm the same as i was this AM. 128.2lbs
That's a 5lb loss since Sunday ;O Technically Monday morning when i took my weight as the starting point. Incredible yes? What's going on with my body! Haha!

Today's been another day of goodness. I think it's the fast making me happy, i tend to be happiest fasting which is potentially dangerous. I noticed something, When Mia came into my life i was still pretty unhappy, depression is a bitch... But then Mia moved out, and Ana moved in. Mia still visits from time to time, but now Ana is here to stay i find myself happy most of the time. It seems when she is here, my depression just floats away. I like that feeling, and that's why i find it potentially dangerous for me. I don't want to get painfully thin, i don't want to become obsessed with being the smallest i can be within deaths grasp. I want to be thin, but not deadly thin. I hope I'll just be able to clear my judgment in time to stop.

Well, it's 00:20am and i have to be up at 8 for college, so i had better get going! Long day tomorrow, college, gym then my friend over to help with my English essay! I will update ofc, and since i don't have to get up early on Friday i will sit down and make time for hitting some blogs (: So expect some comments!
I hope you're all doing good and keeping strong!
Much love to you all,
El xox


3 comments:

  1. I am so happy for you losing that weight! I hope you're really inspired to lose even more now. And I love the fresh feeling of fasting, you feel empty and pure. Keep it up hun, :) xx <3

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  2. wow that is amzing that ur losing weight that fast im jealous but wow yay for u :)
    i wish my depression would just go away ur lucky urs does
    stay stron ghun

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  3. Haha, cute picture.
    Well done with your loss. You definitely deserve it, gorgeous.
    <3

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