So, it's been a few days since i've posted and i'm sorry. I got so so close. I can't believe i'm saying this but i scewed up. I'm destined to be a fatass the rest of my life. I'm going to have to live in this skin forever, i just know it. I try, and try, then something in me snaps. Well, not anymore. I refuse to be this, and i refuse to let myself, or you, down anymore. Fast. A fast untill the 17th when i have to eat, then after that untill christmas eve/day when i'm made to sit with the family for a meal.
I will not fail this time, i refuse to. I dont want to be like this, i dont want to hate myself the rest of my life, and i'm cirtainly not going into 2011 bigger than 8 stone!! I'm going to do it, and i'm going to make you all proud.
I've got World of warcraft back, last time i played it was when i was my lowest weight. It kept me so occupied when i was bored that i didnt eat. I just didn't feel hungry. That's a plus. Fingers crossed!
I had a big oopsy today. Making room on my laptop and i accidently deleted all my music :/ I went mental, nearly cried, that was 2000+ songs lol. I guess i can live with what i have on my Iphone but meh, it's a good 6 years of music there, gone! Just like that!
I hope you're all doing great,
Much love,
El xox
maybe you can salvage your music out of the recycling bin?
ReplyDeletei know how it goes when music just disappears it's painful.
Good luck on your fast i can't go that long but i'm gonna try for a fast tomorrow
stay strong
I hate it when that happens! I lost all my music on iTunes and even the albums I had bought online, gone, forever! Money down the drain! Ha :) I'm loving your motivation at the moment hun, you can do it no doubt just stay strong (which you are) I found that the Sims took up my time and eating time too haha, though it also stopped me from doing work oh dear. :) xxxx stay strong
ReplyDeleteodman im sorry that u lost ur music damn that sucks im so sorry
ReplyDeleteI would /still/ be mental. That's awful, I'm sorry :(
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your fast!
Oh wow. I would go insane. Luckily you have some one your phone.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with it all, babe.
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