'cause we're running out of time.

Tired.
Oh, so, tired.
Work is such a drag sometimes. I had another episode today, but i think that's because of the OEP. I had to run to the toilet and i very nearly threw up. I refused to go home though, even when a supervisor asked. I nearly passed out again so i had some hot choc and 7up, for the sugar. It made the sickness go away but it means i won't drop 2lbs. 117 tomorrow, it's almost cirtain, but still. It's only back to where i left off. I'm working Monday so tomorrow will be a water fast. Hopefully i can get to 115 by Monday, then even 112 by Thursday. Here's to wishfull thinking!

My sister gave birth! I'm so proud of her, and my nephew is gorgeous. He's healthy, she's healthy, so i'm overjoyed!

Work gives me way too much time to think. I keep thinking about the boy situation. I decided something though. If me and D (ex) ever did try things again, i'd make it clear before hand he can't meadle. I'd say "My life is my life, I'm me, and belong to me only. What i chose to do is my choice. No interfering unless i ask for an opinion or help."
Fair enough, i think. One problem was the amount i ate with him... It was constantly. And when my Ana tendancies started coming back (which obviously i was happy about) he wouldn't allow it. I had to eat. I couldn't skip meals. His mum was just as bad, checking up on me eating and that. No more! I won't let it happen. I will get to my goal weight and STAY there!!!

Well, i have an english essay to write tomorrow and i'm too tired to even try think of other things i need to write about. I will update tomorrow, most probably just to confirm i'm 117. blah... can't wait to have the day of not worrying about only drinking water.

Stay strong lovelies,
and stay amazing.
Much love,
El xoxox