Don't wanna hurt anymore

How'd I manage that one? I want to thank *Harley a thousand times over for giving me, among 4 others this award. I never thought in a million years that someone would see neither my writing as inspirational nor me as strong.  Knowing there is at least someone that does, gives me the drive I need to keep going until I hit my goals.

I will follow suit with the other award receivers and hopefully carry this on. I now have to give 10 interesting facts about myself, and then give the award to 5 of the bloggers I read. I’d love to give this back to *Harley but I don’t think I can. Please don’t be disappointed if you’re not listed. If I could list you all, I would. Trust me!

Here goes the fact writing. I’ll try my hardest, but I doubt they’ll be interesting. 

• I have a phobia of reusable plastic. I can’t drink or eat out of anything that’s been used more than once. Even if it’s put in the fridge then taken out the next day for more. (still in its original packaging)
• My hair changes colour every month. I can’t stick to one as it gets to boring. It’s even been grey. 
• I hate to admit it, but I love being a girly girl. I love to feel sexy and lusted over
• I never used to like heels. I couldn’t wear them and never wanted to. I think I was a bit of a tom boy. 
• I’ve OD’d 3 times, and used to s/h. The last time was both in 2009, I still have the scars and as a result I am too scared to open up to people again. My last relationship made me change and realise and I will not let anyone think I’m going down that road again. 
• I’ve done pole dancing lessons and can do the basics. Not well, but it’s still something 
•  All through childhood I’ve been bullied in some way. This secretly made me want to become a councillor so I could help others going through the same thing. 
• I don’t trust anyone. I believe that as hard as anyone tries, they can’t 100% be trusted. And most just don’t even try. 
• If I could have cosmetic surgery I’d get my boobs and nose done. 
• I hate feet. They’re gross, and make me cringe.

There are the facts. Now for the bloggers (:

To start things off, my first blogger will be Annie . You are such a beautiful blogger, and so much like me it's unreal. You're doing so well, and i want you to keep it up.
Sarah you are an inspiration. I always love reading your blogs. I know you're on holiday right now but i hope you see this soon!
Her you are amazing, such a character and it is so lovely to have the privilage of reading your blogs.
Rowan you are just pure, inspiration. Your profile, your words, your life. Keep it up, you have no idea how much you're helping people
Lou we don't speak much anymore, but you've come the furthest of all my friends, and it's been a pleasure to have read the progress. You're so inspirational and strong. I love you for that.

I hope every one of you carry on blogging, being inspirational, and helping all those other bloggers. You have no idea how much your blog can help someone. I look forward to seeing your amazing progress, and even hearing about the bad times. Because every moment brings you to where you are now.


Quickest udate ever, Had to eat, 116 today. Hoping to be 115 again tomorrow so pictures asap! <3
Much love,
El xox