I love him.
I am completely, and utterly, in love with him.
And i wish i wasn't.
I've shown such restraint with eating. I know i have will power. I'm strong. So i'm going to take this, and apply it to my love life. I refuse to text first anymore. I need to play my cards close to my chest from now on. No more slip ups. College is no.1 priority right now. That and finding work. When i do, it'll be better. So the plan for the next couple months is
1) get through college in one piece and apply myself 100%
2) Get a part time job for money.
3) Lose the rest of this weight
4) Keep focus on ME. Not him.
I'm down to 114 today. After being at D's the weekend i thought i'd have shot back up but luckily i had only gone to low 117. It's been hard these past couple days but i'm now 114, hoping for 113 tomorrow, and maybe even 110 by saturdays family party and potentialy a mini date with D. If he pulls his finger out his ass and organises it. I sure as hell won't.
Wish me luck i guess. Green tea fast, after discovering i've started hating normal tea. Either that or our Milk is off. Haha!
I hope you're all doing well, and keeping strong.
You can all do it!
Much love,
El xox
I wish I had taken "before" pictures like you had, your progress is stunning!! So proud of you lady! =) You've come so far and not given up, it's really incredible! You look amazing! Also I think your plan to use your willpower in other areas of your life is really great, and I want to do that same. (: <3 Stay strong!
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you're so strong hun, stay that way!
ReplyDeleteI just saw your pictures from 115 and wow! You look amazing! I mean, look at that change from when you started. Stay strong hun <3