Food baby

So, i stepped on the scales and as i got off i basically laughed through trying to hold back my tears. It can't be right - no way in hell... But i've spent all day basically eating since my family celebrate halloween majorly! I was completely horrified and ran downstairs to grab the lax. 4 taken. They take 8-12 hours to kick in so tomorrow morning will be hell. But i don't care. It's my birthday night out tomorrow and i WILL look great. Atleast i can go back to fasting till wed. Then i can get away with a salad, and straight back to fasting.

Although my brother said something that made my day. I know i should have been offended but it made me happy. He sat at the table and infront of everyone went "so where has fat el gone? She seems to have gone and skinny el is back." I smiled casually and said she's not coming back. He just looked happy for me, the whole family did. I was able to laugh along at the joke and feel good about laughing at my old self. It's great.

Halloween was a success. I promise i'll post some pictures of our house when i get them onto my laptop (the SDcard slot has broken) you'll love it! My little neice was the cutest thing ever in her outfit. We went to about 10 houses on the road and came back with a bag full. The only words she seems to be saying lately are "more" "bye bye" "ouch" and "thank you" - but as 1&1/2 year olds do, she says them cute. Everyone just melted! But it was fun (: Can't wait for next halloween when there will be 3 of them to take :D

I'm so sorry i haven't commented on blogs - i posted last night and it kept saying "scheduled" so i'd edit to post now, and it wouldnt, so i got annoyed and just logged off -.-; I'm going to do it now though! So be ready for some comments! I may not get around to all of them, i still have to do some English work, plus go gym - dye my hair and sort my party out! EEEEE i so cant be arsed with it anymore. Seems so pointless!!!
Anyway, hope you're all doing better than me... I'm not posting weight until i'm back to 125 so don't expect any weigh ins for a few days!!
Stay strong lovelies
El xox


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*Harleyheartsana - your comments always make me smile and help me, you've been there from the start and for this i thank you from the bottom of my heart. Stay strong love xox

xXxPerfectliexXx - I also love reading your comments, thank you for following me and giving me advice // spuring me on!! Keep up the good work and you will definately hit your goals! I'm hear if you need me! Stay strong, think thin! xox

annaxoskinnyxo - Hey new follower! Thanks for taking interest in my blog and i hope you stick around (: You're absoloutly right about the pain on Anas face - beautiful pain! Stay strong hun xox

bonesarepure - Thank-you for the on going support i've received from you. I appriciate your comments so much and i'm glad i can turn here when i need to. Tomorrow is a new day and a new start! Thank god halloween is over with :D Stay strong & Take care! xox

Rowan - thank you so much for that wonderful comment, i am not gorgeous at all but thank you all the same ^_^ And i always try to make you guys smile if i can, esspecialy if it's after a shitty post by me haha! I love having my friend to speak to, but i chose not to. I'd rather a "buddy" IRL as she doesn't understand. Gym buddies is as far as i take it. Happy halloween too you too ^^ Take care hun and stay strong xox

Jennie - glad you like the pics ^^ and thank you!! I'm half way there, only half more to go!! Stay strong! xox

amy - that comment was exactly what i needed - Being called an inspiration is an honour to me, i don't take it lightly. I hope to be my goal soon enough so you can all maybe find inspiration in me. Thank you again, and stay strong! xox

her - Please do me a favour? don't think of it like you've failed. "It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you don't stop" - this is one of my favourite quotes. You may find it a little harder due to lifestyle and personality. But i promise you you will get there. I'm always here for a helping hand and hopefully to inspire you. I push too hard sometimes - and i hit rock bottom alot. Please don't be discouraged - 10lbs is fantastic and you are too (: Thank you for the compliment too and i really hope to be hearing more from you! Stay strong and never, ever give up <3 xox

thank you all for my halloween makeup comments <3

If i've forgotten anyone or i haven't answered something inparticular please feel free to give me a shout and i'll sort it (: Thank-you all so much for your kind words, inspiring comments and incredible support. I will not let you down! Oh, and one more thing...

HAPPY    HALLOWEEN

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